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salam...
nk mntk pendapat semua kt sni....huhu
cani, ak de kwn ngn sorg ni......slalu berYM, sms and call jgk. knl dlm sebulan yg lalu. tp mse tu die kata umo die 2 yrs younger than me. so ak kwn biase2 jek la. sbb ak dr dlu mmg x brani nk ade any relationshp ngn sum1 younger....seriusly xleh msk. so wlpn ak rase die ni ok sgt, menepati ciri2 yg ak nak, and kje pn stable......tp sbb die lg muda mmg ak avoid sgt2 any feelings towards him.
then ade 1 aritu ktrg dok sms, dan disbbkn 1 perkara....ak explain pjg lebar kt die knp ak xleh trime org yg lg muda. then die trus trang yg die sbnrnye sebaya ngan ak, and saje nk test cne ak react bile kwn ngn org lg muda. and die nmpk ak matang & tegas ngn pndirian ak. siap bg ic no nk soh ak caye. then start dr tu, ak da bukak sket pntu ati ak utk die......ye la, aritu ak avoid just bcz of umo die jek.
tp....problem nye brmula di sini. die akn fly smbg master end of dis month.....dan dok kt sne 2 thn or mebi 4yrs utk phd trus....
actually both of us ade pengalaman percintaan jarak jauh (PJJ) yg x kesampaian. ex die kawen ngn org lain, dan ex ak trus senyap lps g oversea. so skrg ni masing takot nk proceed to the next level sbb msh fobia dgn kesah lalu....wlpn die suka ak & ak suka die. tp beza nye, ak ade gak rase nk try, wlpn dlm hati sgt2 takot bile die da jauh kt sne.....ak tkt die jmp org lain. dan die pn same, die tkt nk tgglkn ak kt sni & tkt ak jmp sum1 yg lg better yg ble sentiasa ade dpn mata ak. skrg ni die mcm xyakin & x brani nk truskn sbb tkt perkara dlu tu berlaku lg. ak x slhkn die sbb fobia kami tu same. ak pnh ckp ngn mak & besfren ak yg ak xyakin ngan long-distance relationship....and ak jenis yg nk org tu slalu dgn ak, slalu contact ak, bole slalu jmp......
tp, ak da syg kt die and nk try to have a relationshp dgn die....tp dlm hati msh ade rase takot, & tak yakin. mslhnye skrg die pn same fobia, so mmg x membantu lngsg. at least klo sorg yakin & bersungguh.....dpt la membantu yakinkn yg sorg lg tu kn. ak rse klo die brani, ak pn ble jd brani jgk. tp ni msg2 takot trluka dgn situasi yg same yg pnh jd dlu.....
ak terpk 1 jek, skrg ni msg2 takot berjauhan......the solution is, ktrg tunang & then pas 1 yr ke...kawen. then ak willing to move there to teman die kt sne. utk tu ak no problem at all, mmg ak willing to dok kt sne ngan die smp die abes study. tp.......mcm drastik lak sgt kn. tp klo mcm tu mmg xde mslh la dgn PJJ lg.
tah ak buntu sgt. korang tlg la bg pndpt ak ptt ak wat? ak xnk kehilangan die.... fobia ktrg tu sbb ex ktrg yg x jujur. tp ak ni jenis yg setia bile brcinta & ak rase die pn same...sbb die merana gile bile ex die kawen lain dlu. so ak rase ak ble trust die & mende ni ble jadi....klo die dare to take the risk & trust me..... cne ak nk wt spy die jd lebih yakin ek? tlg ak.....kwn2!~ |
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