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i know all that sbb tu suka tgk lelaki pakai jam apa.
Anyway, i have fb i have insta and i have almost all . Perhaps aku x gunakan untuk kearah mencari jodoh ni. Somehow, i feel something is missing so aku tak tau mcm mana nak start.
Aku bukak diary ni bukan untuk aku cari jodoh..aku bukak diari ni sbb aku nak ceriakan hidup aku the other side of me. Kau tau kan, aku rasa ko pun sama...dalam our social circle do u tell about urself totaly? aku rasa x kan. Sure ada some part in urself yg kau je tau and ur likes and so on. So same goes w me. I have a failure marriage and people see me like i have no issue at all. Aku ketawa aku bercakap and most of the time i can minggle. But the wordo part in my life ni skrg aku ni mcm hidup kat tgh2 dunia yg sibuk ni but ..keliling aku ada tembok.
Aku keje sorang2 jumpa client sekali sekala
Kenduri kendara ni x selalu pun ada and kalau aku pergi pun bukan anda eligible man pun
Kadang2 aku rasa apa yg kurangnya aku ni, aku ikut trend ..my clothes are all kira ok la..xlah aku pki mcm makcik
But i do admit at times i feel so so lonely ..padahal aku tgh fake senyum n ketawa kat member depan aku ni
Recently aku avoid satu offer ni, lepas aku break dgn bf ..and again another ex bf aku masa sekolah..dia dah kawen pun and anak dah 4. Dia kata dia masih cintakan aku..kira first love. But looking at him and his status aku jd annoyed..come on la dude ko ada budak kecik kat umah bini kau plak aku dah penah berbual xkan aku nak kawen dgn ko plak. Plus aku x desperate nak kawen just tangkap muat je. So i just end up the frendship.
Then bfr this my relationship pun sama..yg aku ready nak kawen ..x menjadi pulak.
So im puzzled why why why all my ex yg dtg dalam hidup aku ni..bebalik org yg aku dah kenal. Bebalik laki org...so aku pelik..xkanla aku ni xble nak jumpa org yg fresh yang baru aku kenal.
Tu yg aku bukak diari ni..just u know...hmmm u know...
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aku nak benda tu dtg naturaly...so aku bukakla diari ni just to share my imagination and wildest thoughts and etc bla bla bla...
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Today opis 16/12
Now luch hour. Aku xde geng nak ajak lunch so aku decide skip lunch and tulis kat sini.
Dear diary, am i being cursed??
huh...xkanla..aku masih ingat tuhan and insyallah. Hari ini aku xde apa sgt..tadi pagi gi keje....hmm ada peningkatan yg baik buat aku..aku smile kat org. At least aku xlah masam muka je...then kat lift i say good morning and that sweet little gurl greet aku and wish aku have a great day. Wow at least ada jugak org yg bring positive vibes
Aku terbaca, betul ke FS dan bercerai? wallahualam hopefully just gossip..tho aku x amek port sgt i wish tiada lgi penambahan kes cerai kat negara kita ni.
Kenapala lelaki zaman skrg ni pendek betul akalnya ?
Aku sebelum ni ada jugak hi hi kat online...but aku stop...ada yg nak social sex..oh my umur dah mcm ni klu masih nak buat perkara mcm tu aku rasa mmgla nak berubah payah...org kata makin hitam hati bila sampai umur yg nk masuk 40 and masih x fikir dosa haram..hmm ntahla jahanam.
Lain lain, xde apa selain group enterpreneur aku...lain lain elek.
ps: aku patut masuk mlm ke? so dapat kawan baru atau pegi seminar azizan osman? ali?
huhuhu |
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camnie lah....to me ko bukan keseorangan or lonely....what u need is to focus more on your kid...bila ko focus more to him/her...ko akan kurang fikir hal2 carik bf, nak kawen semua nie....lagi satu, kdg2 bila kita terlalu nak sgt sesuatu....lagi payah kita nak dpt....jadi aku suggest, ko rileks2 jer...keterlaluan berharap bole buat ko rasa kecewa....
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tt tinggal berdua dgn anak ke dgn tinggal dgn famili?
anak brapa org? brapa umur dia? |
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betul cakap kau. aku rasa aku ni terlebih tengok movie...everything is smooth and impossible.
Aku pun mcm tersedar dah kenapa aku ni, like kids...i should know its time to be strong and focus pada anak aku. I think should stop thinking aboit myself dah. Dah habis tamat luput masanya. Masa untuk didik anak aku. Bagi segala apa yg aku xdpt kat dia. Apa yg aku xdapat kecapi and segala apa yg buat aku frust aku kena pastikan anak aku xkan rasa benda tu semua.
I guess u were rite again, sometimes u have to stop looking...mana tau akan dtg sendiri when u less expecting kan.
So aku rasa diary ni pun dah tak perlu lepas ni.
ps: tq midori aku terhutang budi kat ko ni.
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aku rasa ko tak perlu stop diary nie....mungkin tukar focus utama sajer....dari hanya mencari cinta, kepada yg lebih bermakna, seperti cuba memberi kehidupan yg terbaik utk anak2...cuba stabilkan diri dari segi ekonomi....kids nowadays are costly...dan jadikan hal mencari cinta sebagai focus picisan sajer...
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Oh dear, i feel you. Im 34 this year. Masih single. I do feel lonely sometimes. Tengok wayang pun sorg2 ni..hahaha...sometimes rasa mcm down because I couldnt find anyone during the journey, stranger to befriend. I have friends, and bff tp mostly they all ada life sendiri and tak nak kacau. And sometimes i do enjoy going anywhere alone. To do and change my mind sendiri2.
Kita kena filled up our time, like myself, i signed up for Jom Kurus 1 Malaysia yang kevin punya tu, and continue fitness program so that I will look good and fit. The most important thing is kena confident and feel good about ourself. When we changed our look, when u put on new baju..we feel good, rasa confident.
I pun mahu cinta. Mahu di jaga. Tapi I think the time will come. But for now, I want to make myself a better person, confident person, and good in my career.
Kena divert our focus. Focus untuk diri kita sendiri. Be a better person from yesterday, learn something new. U can sign up for dance class, yoga class, gym class or anything.
Our situation might be different, but our feeling could be the same. Move your ass gitu..!
Sorry if panjang pulak..hahahah..i wish you all the best. May the love find their way to us! |
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tt continue cerita..cerita je apa2.. apa pandangan & perasaan u..
menarik.. 
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biarla tt mencari cinta.. menarik apa..
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tak suh pun dia benti carik cinta...cuma lebih focus kat hal yg lebih penting jer....
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Memangla menarik mencari cinta tp klu fokus lari susah jugak.
Tak salah pun and TT still berharap bertemu cinta sejati.
Hari tu TT tgk drama astro..tertengok sampai habis sbb citer dia simple and menarik. Cik Siti. Dia ni dulu hodoh and ada sakit kulit..berubatla dengan nenek kebayan. Dah jadi cantik and semua lelaki kat kg tergila gila kat dia. Sampaikan semua nak kawen dgn cik siti ni. Satu hari mak cik situ suh dia kawen dgn nadim..lelaki yg selalu t mak dia ni, sbb janji kena tunaikan. Tp cik siti xnak and derhaka...mak dia pun mati terkejut. Dipendekkan citer. Sejak tu bermulala episod dia kawen dgn 99 lelaki. Setiap malam pertama semua laki dia mati. Sampaila umur diia 48 tahun..still dia nampak muda jelita.
Tetiba dtgla satu lelaki ni, simple je and xkaya biasa biasa je...ternampak cik siti. Kbetulan dia imam. Terus dia ckp nak kawen dgn cik siti ni. Org kampung jenuh nasihat xkasi kawen sbb nnt mati tp dia nak jugak kawen and jumpa cik siti kat tingkap umah.
Pak imam ni melamar cik siti, cik siti setuju and bg syarat 2 syarat sediakan kain kapan and kapan tu sendiri...pak imam tu pun setuju. And pak imam pun ada syarat..syarat dia cik siti kena belajar solat and ngaji.
Soo kawenla meka ni, org kg dah get ready gali kubur and kapan untuk preparation pagi nanti sbb budget pak imam tu akan mati pagi nnt.
Malam pertama tu, pak imam suh la siti tido and dia ngaji and solat..lepas siap tu..dia nampakla mulut bini dia terbukak masa tido..keluarla kala jengking n lipan...pergh pak imam ni dgn selamba dibunuh semua binatang berbisa tu.
Pagi esok tu org kg dtg umah cik siti nak amek mayat...meka semua terperanjat pak imam tu hidup lagi. Cik siti tu pun senyum panjang sbb hapapy last2 laki yg ke 100 x mati.
alhamdulillah.
Citer drama je ni.
Tp moral citer ni yg aku dpt,
xsalah mencuba dan jgn give up..cuma kali ni kalau boleh aku nak yg simple2 je biasa biasa tp ada ilmu agama..klu dpt pak imam pun ok ble bimbing aku. Ok tak angan2 baru aku ...
Strategi baru nak cari pak imam muda |
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Hi TT..salam kenal..nice thread/diary by the way.. I hope u wud write about ur kid sometimes..anak u boy or girl? I assume ur kid is just 3yo from ur earlier posts..i hope u will find ur mr right for the sake of ur kid n who will accept ur kid as his own jgak..
U r rite sometimes things come when u less expected it..i pun kalau g mana2 suka berangan jumpa my mr right..especially masa holiday overseas..tp x pernahnya sangkut..wakaka..n when the time when u didnt really care..bamm!! A cute guy duk sebelah u dlm flight..hahaha.. i was quite a shy person n still am..but time tu rasa mcm what a waste kalau x try my luck..so i just started the conversation wihout expecting anything n now he is my boyfren..hahaha..but our relatonship comes too fast sampai i yg takut..but enough about me..sorry menyampuk dlm diary u.. i wanna read more from u..keep writing |
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Selamat pagi, 28hb disember 2015 @ 10.35 pagi - pejabat
Hari ni isnin, selepas beberapa hari cuti so today TT back to work, mood keje of coz la very low...malas tahap gaban. But kuat kan semangat and try to get my zest and mood kerje.
About me and my son, my son almost 4 yrs old this year. Bukan nak brag but anak TT lebih matang dari usianya. Sgt petah bercakap and paling best dia tahu how to think and setiap apa dia ckp nampak yg dia tau apa dia cakap. Ada sekali tu time salinkan baju dia..and we talked..mama i think i am much older now and i feel im grown up boy. I want to buy new car for everyone, uncle red car unti blue car tokpa black and our car with fire so we can drive our car every where.
TT selalu suruh dia..use ur imagination, think and think...so TT rasa dia fully utilizekan my tips to him. He is such cute son and i really adore my own son. He can evaluate and he can make his own choice. Kalau gi mall...i will ask him son u can u chose for me which is nicer ( well kalau window shopping baju la ) and he will assist me choosing.
So alhamdulillah i have a son yg sgt menghiburkan hati.
I guess what makes me so look into a soul mate, sbb tt baru je break up dgn bf TT. Padahal dah dapat rasa dari awal untuk tak ada hubungan dgn dia..but degil so now tt rasa tt nak train my self to listen to my heart and firmly.
Apa salahnya mencari cinta, takde yg salah but as long tak hadap sgt. I wish i could find a man yg akan bimbing hati dan diri TT ni ..its ok if i only found him when im 50 ke 60 ke..redha je la ...
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today , tt singgah mc d for a quick breakfast.
Then a man say hi to me and ask permission boleh join breakfast tak. I was like...err ok i said.
Rupanya lelaki tu baru sampai dari perak kena transfer and was waiting for a fren and while waiting tu nak bersembang.
Its a good start for me cuz i say yes, sure join la kalau x malu " dalam hati la aku ckp mcm tu " we chat, and to one point aku rasa akward sikit sbb dia tanya laki keje mana and anak bape...aku paused jap...what shud i say what shud i explained..shud i??"
naa..so aku jawabla laki aku keje kat kl jugak, antar aku gi keje dulu sbb lapar aku singgah breakfast la kat mc d ni.
Should i jawab macam tu...i am lying but i think to be safe la kan..lelaki ni mana boleh layan sgt..but that man seems like normal man, jenis ramah.
So aku rasa ok je la kot a good start tho talking to some one u dont know.
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ko sorang je yg ckp best akmal..heh heheh heh xpe xpe aku suka
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aku jenis support kekawan hik hik hik
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Rasanya yg reply sini ada few yang ckp best. |
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oh, tq intan...okayla klu mcm tu tt akan continue...but why not u all pun share laaa
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Category: Cinta & Perhubungan
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Post time 16-12-2015 02:20 PM
