How I am I supposed to feel, react?

nenekglamer

Awat senyappp jer thread aku neh???

Sorry if the stories aren't HOT enough ...

Well, I could tell everything, but then I would have to kill myself afterwards.. Wakakakaka.. Just kidding...  There is really nothing out of the ordinary actually....

But I can see many visitors coming to this thread.. Silent readers maybe?

mbhcsf

keep on typing....
i was cut out of wireless since last Friday...so.... i am reading those travel log now...... heheheh


for the Green eyes - Go for the eyes NOT for the heart ......

well ...how do u feel at the moment ...

nenekglamer

Originally posted by mbhcsf at 2-6-2008 09:18 AM
keep on typing....
i was cut out of wireless since last Friday...so.... i am reading those travel log now...... heheheh


for the Green eyes - Go for the eyes NOT for the heart ......

well ...

Oo.. that is why you've been quiet.

The green eyes.. I wish I had more chance to explore into them.  But the meeting was short and we were in a noisy place.  I am supposed to fight it off.  Closure remember?

Hehehehe..

nenekglamer

How I feel at the moment? Hmm... Needy.

mbhcsf

where's the headlinessssssssssssss tell us more ...more ..so what 's zappening ?

mbhcsf

so have u pass the threshold ? the closure thingy?

nenekglamer

Originally posted by mbhcsf at 3-6-2008 11:20 AM
where's the headlinessssssssssssss tell us more ...more ..so what 's zappening ?

Ahaks..  Semua dah jumbled up now wakkakaka...

Meeting with V

We headed out early yesterday morning and our friend dropped us off at a friend's house.. V.  I hadn't seen her in almost 10 years and now that she is married to a Mexican (she is of a German descent and is always into the other races like me wakakkaka) and just recently had a beautiful son named Diego.

We hugged each other the moment we got in.. And she had the baby in her arm in between naps.  How we had changed over these years.  We talked and stuff and my friend instantly bonded with Diego.  V was a bit concerned that Diego might cry and refuse to sleep but he wasn't.

We caught up on a few things and she took us to tour into her neat little house.  Then she made us mexican breakfast... Mexican style scrambled eggs and tortilla bread.  It was awesome.  Heh, I had been going mexican since the meeting with Mr S VDH outside of Switch!

Then we went out.  My friend kept talking about Leon's all the time.  Leon's is a place where they sell Frozen Custards (waaaaay better than Ice cream - I doubt if we have it in Malaysia) and during the old days, my ex and I would drive over and have some.  We got there.   And I got me the usual thing (though I didn't really miss it) Strawberry Sundae - basically, a generous dollop of frozen custard with strawberries and generous amount of pecans topped with a cherry.  Something to die for!  I had my fill hehehe..

Ops, I need to get ready.. V will be calling any moment now.

Hmm.. I wonder if Joe is still asleep.. I miss harrassing him lol...

nenekglamer

Originally posted by mbhcsf at 3-6-2008 12:34 PM
so have u pass the threshold ? the closure thingy?

Ehh.. getting there.

Am constantly trying to rationalise things up here.  And we haven't been really in touch too.  Oh we only talked yesterday online and that was it - but it was just a normal chit chatting thingy..

With him.. though I may be wrong - he seems to be someone who likes to send signals.  He doesn't say it, he shows it.. Silence speaks a thousand words.  Well, that is what I can gather from our first meeting.  

Mehh.. lets see tomorrow...

Breathe... breathe...  hehehehhe... *really, I think I am ok..

mbhcsf

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nenekglamer

Originally posted by mbhcsf at 5-6-2008 06:16 PM
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heh?  just a long line?

Ok, today is the day I leave.  My flight is at noon... very very windy morning today.

I cannot really say how I am feeling, but I think I am ready to go home ...

Oh, yesterday I went out with him again.  This time just the two of us...  He drives a CRV.   A lot happened between us.  I will get into it when I get back.  

And he has "zzzzzzz or insanity" on his YM tagline.  I feel responsible somewhat.

I think I got him right where my heart wanted him.

[ Last edited by  nenekglamer at 6-6-2008 07:20 PM ]

nenekglamer

Wish me well everyone!  

pujanclay

pujan minta maaf kat sesape pun pujan wa pernah singgung rasa dia k...
sorry...and let bygone be bygone...
semoga kawan2 semua menemui kebahgiaan yg di cari

nenekglamer

Originally posted by pujanclay at 7-6-2008 10:49 AM
pujan minta maaf kat sesape pun pujan wa pernah singgung rasa dia k...
sorry...and let bygone be bygone...
semoga kawan2 semua menemui kebahgiaan yg di cari

Wassup Pujan?  Cam sedey jer bunyinya??

nenekglamer

Almost home.

I am writing from Changi Aiport Singapore.

The flight home was way shorter this time - Like he had said to me last thursday before he drove off.

I was crying halfway.. well till Narita.  As of now, I have made 3 trips to America and going home was always difficult and full of tears everytime.  All because of a man.

*sighs...

mbhcsf

Originally posted by pujanclay at 7-6-2008 10:49 AM
pujan minta maaf kat sesape pun pujan wa pernah singgung rasa dia k...
sorry...and let bygone be bygone...
semoga kawan2 semua menemui kebahgiaan yg di cari

ni apa pasal pulak ...sedih nyer ..bunyi

what 's wrong with u boy

nenekglamer

I just got home last night.  My parents were happy to see me.  Well, I did not come straight home right after I landed because I did not want them to see how in bad shape I was.  Love sick and totally vegged out.  I took 3 days away and had my class cancelled too.  Huh teruk betul.

But it wasn't as bad anymore.  Some days of reflection and recuperating actually helped me see things clearly - well almost.  But I am glad I actually missed my cats and my laptop hehehhehe.. And this forum.  Nothing beats the old comfort (erh.. and he was one of my comforts too mehh).

I checked my emails and received one from my german expat.  He'd been up to his eyeballs with work (as always) but it soothed me a bit.  Then he was online for a while and I got to see him (P) on cam.  He was laying lazily on the sofa.  I used to really enjoyed seeing him like that.. His smiles, his sexy lashes that would keep batting at me.  His bright brown eyes that would flicker every time we were frolicking with each other.. His naughty teasing ways... But this time, I felt like being in a vaccuum, my soul was not really there.  Really horrifying.  G has taken over me.  Almost.  But P couldn't tell.

I fell asleep after 1 am and now it's 6 am and I have actually been awake for over an hour.  I am still messed up.

nenekglamer

Recaps - I promise I would show picts.  Here are some.


Colleen the nice lady from Houston


My little morning randezvous place


Joe's hot ride


Where we tourists help American economy and kill ours mwahahhahahahhaha


Discovery world on a misty day


Somewhere along the walk.  The provocative flag.

nenekglamer

Whoahh.. mendapppp

mbhcsf

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