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salah satu simptom is I jd pelupa.
Of course kan nama pon blank.
Until I tgk balik gambar lama semua then I teringat.. Oh this happened.. This happened.
Duh..
I nak function normally as a young girl yg energetic and vibrant 
That's why I tgh nak cari solution to this thing.
Tu la after dah breakdown habis, back to Him. Put hope. Tu je mampu
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ha ah betul.
Kdg2 parents keep us going.
True dat.
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hi sy bminat nk tnya psl ur narcissist ex tu dia buat ape je ek sbb i rasa i deal with narcicist bf jgk ni |
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hi sy bminat nk tnya psl ur narcissist ex tu dia buat ape je ek sbb i rasa i deal with narcicist bf jgk ni |
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anyclassything replied at 9-4-2018 05:01 PM
baiklah.
I xmau jd teruk.
U hate people n yet u listen to them. Go seek help if u think u r not ok |
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Hmm panjang sebenarnya tp xpelah I ringkaskan je
I ni jenis suka terus terang. Means bila ada conflict in rship ke apa I suka discuss about that rather than pendam end up meletup.
I rasa mula2 okay je. I can cope with him, dia pun ok with me. Tp lama2 I perasan gak perangai dia cam pompuan sikit, extra sensitive tp suka pendam. Even kawan2 dia pon ckp dia ni ada 'pms' cam betina cket  Means, kalau dia xpuas hati kat I, dia lg suka cold war and bg silent treatment rather than dtg talk to me and man up.
I pon dah lupa banyak drama sebenarnya.. Perangai dia mula2 I try hadap n hadam je. Tp lama2 I jd off limit.
Satu hari dia marah I pasal apa ntah selalu nya benda2 simple je tp dia selalu suka hilangkan diri. I plak bukan jenis camtu.
Then dia muncul balik sesuka hati dia bila nak hilang bila nak cari I.
I tak kisah kalau dia mmg camtu dari dulu. Tp dulu tak camtu.
ada satu kes tu 2 weeks dia senyap dari I, tp at the same time dia sengaja tunjuk dkt social media yg dia ok. Jalan2. nak show off sgt dia doing just fine without I (tak phm why)
So I ajak jumpa nak discuss. Dlm kereta gaduh teruk dia konon luah I ni x care pasal dia la I xpernah pikir pasal dia. Somehow benda tu I pelik, sebab I rasa dia yg buat I. Why dia yg lebih2 drama.
Tp takpelah after gaduh teruk tu I cuba nak jd considerate and nak repair hubungan. I just simply minta maaf and ajak dia try to improve our ship.
tp 3 hari pon dia senyap tak nak respond I pujuk ke apa. I try whatsapp dia xnak reply. I call x nak angkat. I jenis kalau nak fight, fight habis2. Malas nak mengalah.
I siap hantar chocolate bouquet delivery to his workplace with stupid card saying I'm sorry let's make things right. ya so cheesy mcm bodo kan
end up 3 hari baru dia reply "thank u u dont have to do that"
Pastu makin naik lemak lah jantan itu bila tau I duk tggu dia pujuk dia. Makin dia tunjuk dia tgh have fun. X reply whatsapp aku. Duk tunjuk bersuka ria.
After 2 weeks I bagi masa I give up. Tak tahan jgk dia provoke I by showing he's doing fine, siap berbls2 komen dgn entah betina mana dalam IG. (padahal dia bukan jenis camtu pon kalau x gadoh dgn I) So I assume he's happier without me
So I bg one last breakup words panjang2 then I blocked him kat semua tempat(sbb I dah xnak tau apa2 dah).
Sebulan lepas tu dia muncul bg ayat penuh penyesalan jiwa tak fikir panjang bla bla bla.
typical stupid woman I am, terima balik lah.
Tp selepas tu same thing happened. On off on off.
Dia selalu suka give up konon dah xnak I bla bla.. Tp dia yg create sampai 3 fake accounts for the sake nak stalk I.
Banyak sgt drama xreti dah nak susun cite
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other than that..
So pelik la dia ni.
Org lain kalau sakit kan nak kita bg attention ke care ke apa kan.
This guy ego teruk dia push me away.
Satu hari dia sakit2 teruk gak, takleh makan merepek semua. Mood swings dia xyah cakap la, I sabarkan je lah dah org sakit kan emosi tak stabil. tp yg sakit hati I offer nak buat stok makanan healthy utk dia simpan and just simply panaskan pon I kena marah like hello I'm trying to help you out kot
Mls nak cite panjang tp basically I rasa I kena layan mcm sampah. He doesnt even appreciate what I did, end up dia dtg kat I blame I konon I have no effort and I tak faham dia.. Like seriously? 
Even masa I bg chocolate and dia muncul after 1 month tu. Dia dtg and simply said "U tak sabar, U tak try harder, effort u takde" wtff
so camtulah jdnya.
Even on off on off pon I stay je tggu dia sbb masa tu syg kot. Rasa mcm xpelah just fight. Maybe one day it will be different.
Satu lg dia pantang tgk I happy. Contoh dia ignore I, I mls nak ambik pusing so I teruskan hidup. (as always he's my biggest stalker) he will know apa I buat, semua pergerakan I
time tu dia dtg la kacau I buat2 tanya khabar.
I konon happy, dia dtg cari I.
Lepas tu dia blah mcm biasa layan I cam sampah.
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anyclassything replied at 9-4-2018 04:58 PM
Betul tu.
Bila part I baru nak meluah dah kena cop "kau ok je kau je pikir mcm2"
I baru tany ...
Kesian ko dik..xpe..amek mase dulu.. xpelah kalo xde org faham..akak tau last2 ko akan jumpe gak diri ko balik dik..dah 26 tahun ko jadi kuat rileks je hadapi semua..ni namenye dugaan hidup..mmg ko rase yg ko dah fedap..tapi ko meluahkan ni rasenye ko dah amek 1 step forward dik..syabas..congrats ye..ex bf ko ex boss ko parents or kawan2 ko yg x memahami pon ko ketepikan sekejap..bagus ade me time..tapi me time tu ko janganlah memendam rase ...kalo ko nanges pon ok..meraung je la..pastu ko akan rase better sket..ko mesti spesis segan nak melalak depan org..akak paham..kte slalu nengok org melalak depan kite seram gak ripenye..haha..ko mesti dapat pulihkan diri ko balik..akak caye ngan ko dik..xse maknenye lemah iman ke x tabah hati ke hape..bende tu org x boleh ukur pakai mate je...cam akak cakap slow2 dik..akak bile sedar akak baru terlepas dari maut kan..akak tengok tangan akak kosong je tau..so akak fikir kalo aku mati tadi aku x de pape pon dlm tangan..so akak xde motivasi untuk ade pape pon lpas tu..tapi skang ni akak da sedar sikit..pasal kte ni masih hidup la kte kena cuba dapatkn sesuatu..ko start bende simple2 je dik..cam alhamdulillah ko idup lagi..ko senyum je dulu kalo mak ko cakap pape..xpe ..dake pon xpe..kalo ko berusaha tolong diri ko..Allah xkan sia2kan ko dik |
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kelakar pulak baca kisah u ni.
macam u kapel dengan lesbian jer bunyi nya.
tak try harder n no effort kata nya.
mengada betoi bf u yer. drama king.
mood swing dia lagi teruk dari pompuan. 
sorry la kalo i gelak. i tengah imagine dia punya drama.
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anyclassything replied at 9-4-2018 05:50 PM
other than that..
So pelik la dia ni.
Bf i skrg ni plk pom suka hilang muncul hilang muncul.. ble ditnye dia ckp nak tenang dlu tp galak je post2 kat fb semua tension i sis |
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anyclassything replied at 9-4-2018 05:50 PM
other than that..
So pelik la dia ni.
Gile u bg coklat kat bf sbb nk pjuk.. cam tebalik plk kan patut bf ptut bt cmtu kt gf |
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Cane u bley move on sis? I ni pon dah naek bosan nk lyn bf i ni tp i xtaw if dia ni narcissist ke x yg pasti dia suka silent treatment cam ex u gak pstuh i ni mcm tunggul tggu dia cr i mcm u gak dia suke ati dtg n pegi |
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TT, seronoknya jadi TT. Akk ni kerja laki bini, anak 6, kerja opis hour. Masalah akk skrg ni kan... Akk nak tidur dan rehat. Akk rasa bestnya TT boleh tido lena....hahaha.. akk sebenarnya tak tahu nak nasihat apa sebab nasihat orang lain bagus dah. Akk harap TT tenang dan mendapat makna dalam kehidupan. |
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capiloton replied at 9-4-2018 05:42 PM
kelakar pulak baca kisah u ni.
macam u kapel dengan lesbian jer bunyi nya.
tak try harder ...
Mmg pon kawan2 I referred him as ‘betina’
Jahat tol. Tp tu la mmg perangai cam pompuan pms sbenarnya..
Drama non stop.
Kalau I share cerita dgn kawan2 I ni pon dorg akan mcm more to mindfuck and gelak. Mcm seriously. Asal mcm ni. Haha  |
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Post time 9-4-2018 10:19 PM
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kuihbakar replied at 9-4-2018 08:35 PM
TT, seronoknya jadi TT. Akk ni kerja laki bini, anak 6, kerja opis hour. Masalah akk skrg ni kan... ...
Sebelum quit dlu pon I mcm tu kak. Stress keje + stress routine + stress hadap kerenah2 org. Sebab keje I mmg required me to deal with org2 kalau sorg sangkut, sangkutlah keje I. Huhu
Alhamdulillah skrg ni lepas phase stress under boss tu. Tp as I stated la akak, I dah jd blur. Tak tahu what to do next. Takde vission plak hehe tp maybe betul org ckp benda ni temporary sbenarnya . And I harap mmg temporary.
Dulu keje I toxic sampai I balik rumah sampai camtu I xpikir dah apa. Balik xtukar baju I terus melepet atas katil.. then tertdo terbangun pkul 1,2 baru mandi. Kalau x bangun sampai esok la i tdo camtu.
Pastu everyday dlm train tu pon I pikir is this how should I live my life. Train ride everyday sampai tua 9-6. So negative sampai tdo tak lena weekend x enjoy.
Untungnya sbb I single n less commitment. And masa tu ada savings so without pikir panjang I quit je la. I rasa mcm x worth it bila overstress sampai I rasa my mental health tak ok.
I keje cam org gila cmatu tak kaya2 pon haha. Tp tu lah masalah skrg jd demotivated plak. Hrp2 I found la the purpose to move forward or at least I ada strength to fight my own devil |
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For now just keep sharing je dalam ni sis, if tu boleh buat sis fokus and at least ada something yg sis boleh buat dalam masa free/ blur tuh. Bab kerja tu sampai masa nanti tetap kena jugak unless online biz tu memang menjadi so boleh duduk rumah jek.
Yg bf@ex-bf sis tu.. ntah la, aku yg dengar ni pun ase malu ade spesis gitu. Dah la tunggu dipujuk, dah pujuk siap cakap nak lebih lagi, try harder. Gile ke ape, biase lelaki pujuk pmpuan, ni terbalik lak. Yg sis pun gigih la pujuk...alahai...
Pastu macam biasa la, bila dah takde, baru terhegeh2 carik, buat fake acc semata2 nak stalk. Masa ada tak hargai, dah takde baru sedar diri..aihh
Geram plak aku time menaip ni, sori sis |
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Post time 9-4-2018 11:17 PM
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hporphic replied at 9-4-2018 07:46 PM
Cane u bley move on sis? I ni pon dah naek bosan nk lyn bf i ni tp i xtaw if dia ni narcissist ke x ...
Sebab one day I notice dia contact dgn ex dia balik.
Sedangkan status kitorg mcm unknown masa tu (sebab perangai dia suka silent treatment kan I. I still bg peluang yg dia akan berubah and dtg cari I and make everything better)
I tgk dia contact ex dia tu mcm wake up call la for me. I rasa extra bodoh di situ, tatkala I duk tggu dia, setia time dia ignore I, xkisah pun I hidup ke mati for weeks, tak tanya khabar I, I expect he would do the same even dia psycho. I silap. Entah2 time x contact I tu mmg happy melayan perempuan that’s why boleh teruskan hidup mcm I x wujud dlm hidup dia selama ni
I try nak jd penyabar as I ckp. I bukan jenis ambik decision x pikir panjang. Lagi2 when it comes to relationship thing ni. But I can’t be the only one yg nak kena fighting. I pun ada limit gak.
So one last time I tanya dia elok2, u sebenarnya syg tak kat I. Kalau syg buat perangai elok2 penat la mcm ni. Then he said he dah lama move on tak sangka I still bla bla bla. So I pon mcm okay then, let’s move on. Last text bila i ckp nak move on pon dia x reply smpai skrg. Ni masalah jantan, dia nak buat perangai tp expect kita terima tggu dia cam tunggul. Sorry no.
So dengan itu I decide for real. I nak lupakan dia. 4 days after that my birthday. Dia takde wish, instead on my birthday (i still sedih la pasal baru phase breakup kan) dia upload dia tgh have fun with family and friends. Dah la we share the same birthday month.
End up birthday dia a week after that I pon tak wish. Bila I tak wish tu. Dia cam meroyan. Keep upload status2 meroyan then tetibe dia deactivate semua, ig, fb and everything. Aku pon xpham dgn dia ni.
I ada rasa kesian and nak tanya khabar tp I tahan. Pikir balik for me org mcm ni buat baik pon xde guna.
So from there I stop ambik tahu everything pasal dia
Stop stalk dia
Delete semua benda berkaitan dgn dia
Buang brg2 dia bg
It’s not easy nak detach sebenarnya. Lg2 org psycho mcm tu. Org psycho ni sbenarnya dia ada charm dia sendiri yg buat you hooked to him. (Article pun ckp camtu kay bukan I je ckp )
Susah nak move on. Tp everytime u rasa nak stalk dia ke nak call dia ke, keep reminding urself “ takde guna pon.”
So might as well pegi layan bridget jones ke tgk doraemon ke lg bagus haha
(Move on tips cara I)
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BlackCarnival replied at 9-4-2018 09:25 PM
For now just keep sharing je dalam ni sis, if tu boleh buat sis fokus and at least ada something yg ...
Hahaha pls refer previous post if nak tau sambungan pasal ex bf I.
I gigih time tu sbb konon x nak jd typical pompuan yg salahkan lelaki. Even I rasa he the one who didnt treat me right. I try nak phm gak dia gak.
So when he said I xde effort, I x care pasal dia. I terima je la even I rasa hari2 I x pernah miss tanya khabar dia.
Masalahnya pulak kan skrg
Dia hacked my ig.
I mula2 igt ni keje budak2 random kot. Ada i silap tak logout ke apa. Tp satu hri tu org hacked ig I and tukar nama tu something yg only can relate to him.
So I dah start speculate that it’s him. Kawan2 I ckp kalau login without motive selalu after tukar password dah xleh dah. Hanya org yg ada motif will keep login.
Conversations I semua dia baca. Dah la ada conversation I story pasal dia dgn kawan I dlm tu. Dia geram and dia changed my ig name to that.
Tp sebab skrg I mls nak kisah pasal apa2 pun.
I mls nak pikir pasal dia hacked I tu. Hack je la. Baca la apa nak baca. Entah la I simply xde perasaan skrg ni |
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Boleh try this online test utk tgk are u just stress, anxious or depressed. Or semua sekali
https://www.breakthrough.com/assessments
Dlm byk2 cerita you takde semangat utk apa2, i perasan u ada semangat nak watch movies when forummer suggest. Ok at least that’s something.
U kena explore apa yg u actually tak rasa malas nak buat. Like joging malas, makan malas, tengok movie OK. So maybe ada lagi benda lain yang u ok utk buat. |
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anyclassything replied at 9-4-2018 04:47 PM
I see..
U mcm mana dulu? Mcm I gak ke.
Down jugak. Down sbb kerja, suka org tp tepuk sebelah tangan, bos hauk, duduk rumah sewa dgn housemate yg annoying, macam2 la. Org ckp pegi hiburkan hati, enjoy yourself. Yeah, easier said than done. Keluar pegi tgk movie, jalan2, travel. Tapi tetap rasa down. Sebab tu I pegi buat appointment jumpa counsellor. |
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