Demotivated + Lost

anyclassything

MonnaLissa_ replied at 8-4-2018 04:48 PM
Ingat kn sy seorg je yg ade prasaan mcm ni. Huhuhu bgs gak awk up bnde ni. At least dpt jugak bce ko ...

Hello

Jemput share jugak your feeling.
Kan. Ada kawan2 I suruh kawin la apa.
Bab malas tu more tu bukan malas, more to tak interested kan. Sebab barely feel anything.

So everyday you teruskan your life camne? Org lain affected tak dgn your condition camni?
I skrg more to nak avoid everyone je. Including family.
Mcm my mom cerita something kan, I jd mcm betul2 tak interested nak respond sebenarnya. Bukan sebab I marah or benci dia. Cuma I rasa it is something yg I tak perlu komen. Tp tak elok kan so I fake it and buat2 interested je lah even kalau ikut hati mcm I taknak respond and sembang pasal ni.

Teruknya diri ini

anyclassything

ayorsuam replied at 8-4-2018 04:52 PM
I dah 40.

Orang sebaya I usually dah have all things figured out, berbahagia di samping suami d ...

Thank you sis! Congrats that you’ve made it through..

Kdg2 I terpikir what if 5 or 10 years from now, yet nothing changes. I still mcm ni. Stuck in between of nowhere.

I tahu the fact yg I should enjoy and live the moment. Masalah skrg I totally feel nothing to everything.

nor876

kawen bukan jalan penyelesaian..sy dulu pnh rasa mcm tu.rasa xnk wat apa2..nk pergi keje pon mls.cuma kekuatan sy everyday sy call my family..bila pk family,end up xjd buat bukan2.pnh jugak kwn2 tny nape makin lama sy makin sepi..sebab  xde benda nk share dgn kwn2..

anyclassything

nor876 replied at 8-4-2018 05:05 PM
kawen bukan jalan penyelesaian..sy dulu pnh rasa mcm tu.rasa xnk wat apa2..nk pergi keje pon mls.cum ...

Last time I keje. I give up sebab my manager yg psyho.
I rasa dia gila. I rasa dia ocd or what.
Mental draining my job last time.

So org cakap busykan diri at work..
Mmg tak la sebab my manager was toxic.
Keje I banyak deal dgn org. Org taknak dgr I cakap.
Nak kena settle monthly reports for companies and subsidiaries companies ada la 11 reports every month.
11 meetings la every month with the top management.

Nak handle those 11 companies ya allah. Meeting esok. Harini baru send reports. I nak check satu2 tu meeting dah esok, nak resend for correction, I gak nak kena print for everyone and bind. Siap  lg if ada benda salah. I selalu kena marah sebab nak kena deal with directors/ceo.

Masuk meeting lg big boss marah if report x elok. Buang masa meeting katanya. Semua atas bahu I.

Back to office, manager I marah I plak.
Apa nak buat bodo I tersepit tengah2.
Manager plak gila. Meeting pukul 10 org hantat recent report pukul 9.30 then I nak prepare report lg.. bila terlambat I la yg nampak.

Trauma fikir psl keje

Panjang pulak tercerita pasal keje

suterakaseh

anyclassything replied at 8-4-2018 06:16 PM
Last time I keje. I give up sebab my manager yg psyho.
I rasa dia gila. I rasa dia ocd or what.  ...

Haha....stress dengar/ baca keje u ni
Kalau i pun angkat kaki terus
I rasa utk mengembalikan semangat u buat la something yg mengembirakan u...
Baking ke...travelling ke...paling koman pun tengok movie yg kelakar2 ke..
Cer try !

netto_

Kau ni bkn dedolu ade bukak tered psl kwn ko tu. Yg terlanjur dgn bf. Aku ingat2 lupa. Bende ko rase ni ramai jgk rase. Aku pon rase jgk kdg2. Aku jd mcm tu sbb stress dgn keje. Mungkin ko pon mcm tu xtau nk handle stress keje ni. Aku smpai satu tahap hari tu aku accident moto sbb hilang fokus plus stress, otak asik pk psl keje. Patah kaki. Skg aku handle stress aku btul2, jgn layan down sgt. Mase aku stress dulu pon aku slalu say no dkt kwn2 aku yg ajak hiking. Padehal aku kaki hiking. Aku memerap je kt umah, do nothing. Tp skg aku da ok sikit lps accident, xnk da stress teruk2.

AkuMark

Tt duk ngan family ke skang?

anyclassything

suterakaseh replied at 8-4-2018 05:50 PM
Haha....stress dengar/ baca keje u ni
Kalau i pun angkat kaki terus
I rasa utk mengembalikan sem ...

Last october I pi Myanmar.
Last January I kat sabah sebulan.
Last week I baru je balik dari camping trip dgn my friends berkayak la apa.

Balik2 numb balik. Lost balik tak tau apa nak buat dengan hidup

Ya stress. Kesan dari leadership skills manager I, I dah xde self confidence. I rasa I’m good for nothing. Tend to blame myself. Tak tahu la sebenarnya I mmg bodo atau dia yg gila. Bayangkan email pun dia complain mcm I buat silap rugikan duit company 40 juta.

Email I dia akan complain “why use complicated phrases? Just put simple sentences”

Bila I tukar balik..
“Eh why your words you know. Very informal. Pls make it formal bla bla”

Then I copy contoh yg dia punya email tukar mana perlu, I guna style sama for 3 months. Then the 4th month dia tetibe marah2 kat group whatsapp eh gila tu kau punya 3 bulan dia ok je tetibe nak royan. Tak paham apa dia nak

I thought ok maybe I was wrong.. I bodo english ke apa kan.

Then ada sorg senior staff.. Dulu dia study n keje kat aussie 20 years. Email dia bagus je. Pon kena complain gak. Manager I cam why u put that, bla bla bla.
I mean.. why you nak spend time marah2 on email things. Very unnecessary one. I mean ok kalau betul salah ke apa it is acceptable. But. Entah lah or maybe mmg I bodo english. Urghhhh

Tu baru pasal email ye. Cuba bayang benda2 lain camne

anyclassything

netto_ replied at 8-4-2018 05:50 PM
Kau ni bkn dedolu ade bukak tered psl kwn ko tu. Yg terlanjur dgn bf. Aku ingat2 lupa. Bende ko rase ...

Yes pasal sepupu aku tu.
Yg mcm2 kes tu kan. Cite lama tu. Hahaha

Ye kot stress. Dah quit keje pon tp still rasa camni apasal eh? Maybe aku ni makhluk overthink?

Dulu time keje mmg aku stress. Bayangkan hari jumaat aku dah susah hati pasal nak kena pegi keje hari Isnin. Pheww

Baiklah. Skrg ni tgh nak figure out camne nak re-start hidup aku balik. Mmg teruk if keep mcm ni, tapi kalau boleh taknak fake it. Nak betul2 happy dari dlm. Setakat fake enjoy kuar dgn kawan semua tu mmg selalu aku buat hahaha
Cuma lately aku dah xmampu nak fake enjoy happy2. Sedangkan aku x enjoy pon sembang ke apa. Sampai tahap aku gtau dorg sorry takleh join I tak sihat hmmm

anyclassything

AkuMark replied at 8-4-2018 06:03 PM
Tt duk ngan family ke skang?

Ye stay dengan parents. Parents I keje so everyday I sorg je sampai petang. Tu yg I seronok layan perasaan yg kosong sampai tahap xde feeling in anything.

Parents balik terpaksa buat2 berminat nak respond and sembang. Urghhh

Minami2013

Phase dlm life mcm tu kot.. kdg2 rase kosong..

armin

Actually kau depression. Depression je yg akan tiba2 lost interest dgn everything yg kau suka. I know ive been there.

Pergi buat check yp dkt hospital govmt. Ckp nk refer dgn psychologist/ psychiatrist. Bkn gila tau. It’s just your mental health

anyclassything

Minami2013 replied at 8-4-2018 06:19 PM
Phase dlm life mcm tu kot.. kdg2 rase kosong..

Normal ke tak apa yg I rasa skrg ni?
I tgk everyone teruskan hidup enjoy.. I mcm, kenapa I takleh jd mcm dorg.

Kenapa nak kena rasa mcm ni

armin

anyclassything replied at 8-4-2018 05:42 PM
Tu la maybe I kena start doing something with purpose.
Masalahnya kawan2 I yg sambung master/phd ...

Kalau kerja pun u sanggup berhenti, i tak rasa u sanggup nak sambung belajar. Lagi stress nak buat tesis bagai.

anyclassything

armin replied at 8-4-2018 06:22 PM
Actually kau depression. Depression je yg akan tiba2 lost interest dgn everything yg kau suka. I kno ...

Kan.
Banyak gak baca pasal depression.

Yg benci bila aku meluah dekat some friends pasal benda ni. Apa yg aku rasa semua. Dorg mcm “it just you, get over it” “takyah layan sgt. Overthink je tu”

So tak membantu at all.

Menyampah plak. Dorg kalau nangis royan pasal bf ke apa masing2 aku dengar cam org bodo je layan sedih pasal bf la pasal thesis tak siap la. Melalak cam org gila pun aku layankan je.

Last2 malas nak jumpa semua org.
Ye kot armin, aku mmg pikir nak jumpa doc.

How’s the process? Doctor akan bg meds or what

noor2

anyclassything replied at 8-4-2018 07:27 PM
Normal ke tak apa yg I rasa skrg ni?
I tgk everyone teruskan hidup enjoy.. I mcm, kenapa I takleh ...

Cari boyfriend. ....mungkin sunyi tak.ada boyfriend tu rasa kosong. ....

Minami2013

anyclassything replied at 8-4-2018 11:27 AM
Normal ke tak apa yg I rasa skrg ni?
I tgk everyone teruskan hidup enjoy.. I mcm, kenapa I takleh ...

Normal kot.. tp u kena lawan la.. tak boleh layan, takut menjadi punca kemurungan.. emmm, cara i mmg lg dkt kan diri ngan agama.. baca mathurat pagi & ptg.. solat sunat especially dhuha.. dulu i siap rase mcm baik mati je.. then semua rase lost n depressed tu hilang.. i rase sbb i buat rutin kot..

anyclassything

noor2 replied at 8-4-2018 06:31 PM
Cari boyfriend. ....mungkin sunyi tak.ada boyfriend tu rasa kosong. ....

Boyfriend tu satu masalah gak dlm hidup I.
I baru moved on dari a very narcissist ex-boyfriend.

Dia salah satu kecelaruan hidup I dari last year. Masalah dia skrg, dia yg buat2 xnak I. Pastu skrg hidup dia duk hack instagram I. Ni pun satu masalah tak settle.

Tp since I xde perasaan and kosong je skrg ni. I malas nak respond. I just keep my insta inactive/ delete conversations.

Tu pun satu tak phm kenapa perangai camtu.
Boyfriends kalau datang yg tak berkualiti baik tak payah kot. Semakkan hidup I + tambah punca depression I je

doubleA

armin replied at 8-4-2018 07:22 PM
Actually kau depression. Depression je yg akan tiba2 lost interest dgn everything yg kau suka. I kno ...

Setuju. Jumpa psychologist pls buat test dorang. Ko pun cakap ko tak tahu punca kan? Pls seek for help from the expert. Keluar dari dunia kosong tu. You muda lagi

armin

anyclassything replied at 8-4-2018 05:57 PM
Hello

Jemput share jugak your feeling.

I dulu macam tu. Masa zaman study degree lagi. Jadi mcm tu sbb masalah bertimpa2. Then putus cinta byk kali. Lagi bertambah depressed.

Then tak lama parents i bercerai, masa tu i dah grad dah pun. Then i kahwin, tp tak lama my mom meninggal. Walaupun i happy kahwin tp start dr my mom meninggal tu mcm2 jadi, relatives i berperangai makcik bawang. Selalu ckp benda yg sakitkn hati smpi i nangis.

Sampai my husband tak izinkn i jumpa dorg dah.

Benda tu jadi sikit2, lama2 tak tahan i meletup.

So i decide i tak contact dorg terus. Take years to recover. Now bila i avoid benda yg i tau akan buat i depressed, and bila ada masalah i elakkan fikir. I akan selesaikan masalah tu bila tiba masanya, i xkn terbawak2 sampai tidur, terfikir2 sampai masalah tu selesai dah.

Dulu my husband selalu ckp jgn fikir jgn fikir. Dia ingat senang ke? Tp lama2 i try jgk. I fikir more to apa yg buat i happy, like improve myself, apa2 hobi u suka, then slowly i happy balik.

Actually i dah tahap depression, tapi my husband tak percaya i depressed. Dia ingat i just stress. But it’s not. Actually depression kena makan ubat. But until now i tak pergi pun diagnose.

I dah ok now and feel so much better tapi if ada something yg buat i stress contoh terjumpa relative i makcik bawang tu, dia akan trigger my depression balik. So i elakkan. Ada sekali terjumpa dia, in that one time pun dia nak cari peluang sakitkan hati i, i terus keluar dari situ.

I know i still tak recover fully, mana boleh depression baik sendiri but i feel much better bila masalah tu dah takde.

Apa pun, dont think too much and get help. And u tak buat apa2 ni la (tak kerja, takde kerja, nothing to do) sbb too much free time tu ada banyak masa fikir. So get busy and get help ya.