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Throwback #2
I always told myself if he meant to me then there will be a way for us. Still i was crying..even after a month happened..
I cant run awah from him. We are in the same office, we bumped each other and we having same project together. So i have to be professional and put aside emotional issue.
We paused means we are still going out, only we dont talk lovey dovey thingy. But yes, he still call me boo. It just i stop calling him sayang. I just cant. I have my pride too. Until he settle and we are still in pause i will put aside my feeling.
As i promised to be at his side, it also means i have to be strong for myself. I cant cry but inside my heart im crying. Im smiling to him since he needs more strength than me. Yes, im doing this because im ikhlas and i love him unconditionally. As i promised i will be at his side, and im doing right now.
We spent more time together within this period, accomopanied him for fishing. His favourite hobby and dats only time i can see him smiles and alive.
He change a lot since Ramadhan. To be better person, better Muslim and he start prahing consistently. At the same time, he still lectyred me about my aurat. How he doesnt like they way im wearing hijab not cover the chest. How i take tnings lightly in my dressing style. Im digesting, i guest during this heart broken days im also make myself even closer to Allah. To makes me stronger, ikhlas and redha.
I learn to redha and put my faith in Allah decision.
"Hati kita milik Allah, hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita"
