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Reply #240 Agul's post
cute nye
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Aku serabutt lagi hari ni...
Kemuncak pada the cold treatment from him. Macam acuh tak acuh je... Last2 aku confront dia... tanya apahal.. Tension woo.. daripada elok2 friendly, tetiba jadik cold.
Tapi aku pulak terpaksa keluar, ada appointment, So I had to leave when he was explaining. So I told him I had to go and logged off....
When I came back online, two hours later... He sent me these messages.
so heres the thing, and i know its crappy to leave this when i'm going to bed
i worry a lot about you and i
a ton, the closer the date gets the more scared i am its gonna hurt to see you and then let you go
and i'm fragile, we both are
i worry that the commute to malay back and forth won't make a good long distance relationship
and then what?
i don't want either of us to hurt and that is my worry
I was like... WTF??? Eh, dulu cakap, no expectation and just fun.. wooo tak pahammm.. tak pahammm.... And if he wanted to be ALONE or dah taknak deal ngan aku cakap jer la.. AKU TAK DE KUASA AJAIB WAHAI LELAKI BODOH! Ha kan, dah kena bodoh...
So, I replied "It is not fair for you to hurt me even before we met". Dia tak balas an dterus logged off. Menci betul aku!
So, I went and talked to his friend (who was still awake) about all this and he confessed to me that this guy likes me a lot. In fact, I was the first online friend he ever talkted to to him. Whatever la.. But aku lega sket for now. It is a lot easier to talk to people who isn't emotionally attached. *sigh... |
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Originally posted by ischae at 11-5-2008 11:47 AM 
helo helo nenek..what's up ek?
dh jumpe ker?
Tak lama lagi, hopefully. |
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Reply #241 vivirp_25's post
garang tu...
gigi tajam... |
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Reply #243 nenekglamer's post
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wow...what a confession
Originally posted by nenekglamer at 11-5-2008 05:45 PM 
Aku serabutt lagi hari ni...
Kemuncak pada the cold treatment from him. Macam acuh tak acuh je... Last2 aku confront dia... tanya apahal.. Tension woo.. daripada elok2 friendly, tetiba jadik ...
well at least u know , he is being honest about his insecurities, the thought and the laid belief and of course the EXPECTATIONS are all there for u to see and even digest......u see..and i think it is rather that he is the one does not want to feel hurt kot as he seemed very fragile boy band guy ni...well i respect him.
well u know....
u could wait and see..or u can try to release off the pressure by just u know stating that you are not expecting anything magical...well magical sucks anyway to be honest when it sucks really ....really sucks..itis all an illsuion to think of it...so
u know
just chill out and u probably wanted to do some u know "taebo" or listen to the DROPS of JUPITER love that song..anyway....or AQUA - be a man...i know these songs are kinda old...but u know.
but to be honest Nanny , do not have any attachmentlah kot , get RID of the attachment ! that is not LOVE in the truest sense...
love
Syida. |
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oh yess..
another reason why a non - malay is easily predicted and u know about being opened.
well eer NAnny the friend of his seemed to be a good guy.....hahhahha |
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well
Originally posted by nenekglamer at 11-5-2008 05:47 PM
Alah.. boss aku saja nak ngurat tu...
He is ripe for a second wife I think.. Or just going through midlife crisis.. 
if he is ..he is falling in love with the Bright Lady....so a compliment for u,
but u know dish him out ..no way poor wife. |
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Originally posted by mbhcsf at 11-5-2008 06:45 PM
well at least u know , he is being honest about his insecurities, the thought and the laid belief and of course the EXPECTATIONS are all there for u to see and even digest......u see..and i t ...
He is confusing me.
All I am expecting is.. to meet up, spend time together and if things go well, then it is good. If not, then it is good in a sense that I have finally finalised this long neverending relationship. Perhaps, we both haven't let each other go in the past that things keep hanging. I don't know, I just have to be with him.
I just didn't expect him to suddenly blow things out of proportions. For one, as I see it.. WE ARE JUST ONLINE FRIENDS and I am still standing on that ground. Why did he need to step beyond that line? And I don't deserve to be treated like this.. kept in the dark. No wonder la, he kept counting the days.. While I just focus on taking care of this and that. I don't think about our possibilities that much.
Maybe it is me, I am no longer able to feel things. Numb. Even with the German expat, he thinks we have something special going on since he's opened up to me a lot. I still see him as ONLINE GHOST. I insist we meet first than go from there. Maybe I am just being sane and protective towards myself.
Did you know? For some weird reason I am gonna arrive at the airport in his town instead of my old town place - plans changed. Macam nak dipercepatkan jer our meeting neh. Originally, we were gonna land at my old town (85miles from his town). And I didn't have the chance to tell him (because of this damn drama).
His friend has been such great help. *sighs... |
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Originally posted by mbhcsf at 11-5-2008 06:47 PM
another reason why a non - malay is easily predicted and u know about being opened.
well eer NAnny the friend of his seemed to be a good guy.....hahhahha
Mehhh I don't know. I am getting tired of being the stronger one in the relationship.
As I had discovered in the "the colour of your test", I am an aggressive lover who enjoys reckless driving.
These dramas, emotional rollercoasters, issues this and that.. Ergghhh... |
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Originally posted by mbhcsf at 11-5-2008 06:49 PM
if he is ..he is falling in love with the Bright Lady....so a compliment for u,
but u know dish him out ..no way poor wife.
He accidentally told me he loves me like two years ago (when we were in the middle of an argument). Well, he can love me all he wants and my heart always wants what it wants.
And one of my rules in life - avoid getting emotionally involved with married men if possible and his wife is no stranger to scalpels.. 
Nah, I am not worried about my boss as long as I keep my distance and my stand clear. |
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Reply #252 nenekglamer's post
hehe
he left something inside ur heart la granny....and u dont really gave it back to him last time...so i think u can never really get over him until u give back all...
or perhaps u did not get ur heart back...he still has it...
do u want me to steal it for u |
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Originally posted by nenekglamer at 11-5-2008 07:18 PM
Mehhh I don't know. I am getting tired of being the stronger one in the relationship.
As I had discovered in the "the colour of your test", I am an aggressive lover who enjoys reckless ...
well dear dear u are emotionally swamped i guess. so u know stop this. Chill out and sort this thing out later.
just put a stop to this thing lah. it tires u up.
i can't see it works lah.
Sorry lah kot....perhaps with the HERR Expat would such a good diVersion...err ? HERR ..heheheheh
bless u gal. |
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Originally posted by mbhcsf at 11-5-2008 07:24 PM
well dear dear u are emotionally swamped i guess. so u know stop this. Chill out and sort this thing out later.
just put a stop to this thing lah. it tires u up.
i can't see it works lah. ...
Yep, HERR B... and FRAU Me.. sounds great.
Eh, did you know, one of my friend says HERR ada iras Nicolas Cage. Sabarrr je la..
But that is my fav actor. Hehehe...
Yep, I am tired. I think I am just gonna chill it.
You know what I would hate is.. when someone tells me "don't go" at the airport. |
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Reply #254 pujanclay's post
of course we can be good friends... and none of the gay stuff...
my friends ask me to go watch ironmen with them last week but something came about so I can't go. I would guess the special effect would be spectacular. |
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Category: Cinta & Perhubungan
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Post time 11-5-2008 02:03 PM
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