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“Dah Masuk Fasa Psycho” – Ramai Tegur Makin Berisi, Janna Nick Bangun 4 Pagi Buat Ujian Kehamilan
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Edited by NuansaBiru at 11-3-2024 06:43 PM
green~tea replied at 1-3-2024 11:51 AM
Kannnn setiap orang dikurniakan ujian, nikmat, amanah & rezeki yang berlainan... x yah le compare2 ...
NOTE: Some names/places/times/dates are modified to protect my identity
Just to share. This is of course my burner account. Tak boleh ambik risiko guna akaun sebenar. Bahayaaaaa lol
We enjoy our lives even without kids but after 11 years I couldn't take all that shit surrounding my marriage anymore (bukan kes curang, masalah kewangan ke kena pukul ke apa, lebih pada we drifted apart, buat hal masing2 saja, and not feeling the love that we used to have anymore, i felt really empty, & my husband flat out refused to address the issues until it was too late) menangis2 nak bercerai, laki aku merentan2 tak nak cerai, ko ghaser? Tapi akhirnya bercerai juga kami. He really has that kind of airs abt him, dah I dah taknak hidup dgn dia dah, tak kuasa dia nak panjang2kan lagi nak pujuk rayu. Cerai jelah. Nak sgt kan?
MIL mmg dr asal tak berapa sihat, tapi lepas kami bercerai kesihatan makin merosot, keluar masuk hospital, makan pun kadang kena paksa. Biasa mmg tiap 2,3 hari sekali mmg kami akan pegi rumah PIL, kadang2 masakkan dinner, makan sekali, pkl 9-10mlm baru balik rumah sendiri, kadang bermalam kat situ. Tapi bila dah cerai, I mmg jarakkan diri, I broke all that routines, I wanted to move on, dlm tempoh edah I already moved out from our marital home, tendered my resignation, wanted to do something of my own. Tapi manusia merancang, Allah juga merancang, dan Allah sebaik2 perancang.
Dekat akhir2 tempoh edah, my ex datang jumpa I, I can still remember his words in verbatim "I swallow all my pride today just to say this to u, but my mother is not doing well & I really need you, for her sake. I'm not asking u to get back to me. That ship has sailed (kononnya lah haha). I cuma nak u ikut i pergi hospital tgk mak i. And I won't take no for the answer." Tegas bunyi very der ceo megah holdings sangat lol
Sampai2 hospital tu mmg nampak uzur sungguh MIL i. Menangis2 MIL peluk I, mcm dah 3 tahun tak jumpa. Petang tu discaj, & my ex mintak I duk rumah PIL bbrp hari, jadi kawan penyejuk hati mak dia. Nak tolak, kesian kat mertua. At that point, as if she no longer has the will to fight dah. I punya struggle emosi tak tau nak cakap. I takda masalah pun nak berbakti pada mertua meski dah tak ada ikatan dgn anaknya, sbb selama ini mmg mertua i sgt2 baik dgn i. Cuma yg payah, sbb kita nak move on, tapi keliling kita penuh dgn segala benda yg mengingatkan kita pada dia. Memang lah dia tak stay situ, tapi dah kita pun duk kat bilik dia, tidur atas katil dia, it's his freaking childhood bedroom, tipu kalau tak rasa apa2, walau pada luaran kita acah2 cool saja. Mak I pun dah berbunyi, dah bercerai, buat apa pegi duduk rumah orang, ada rumah sendiri, duduk la rumah sendiri. My mother being a total drama queen will never comprehend that, nor try to understand the situation that i was in
Lepas 2 minggu I mintak dgn my ex nak balik duk rumah I semula, lagi pun MIL dah nampak makin ok, belum 100% tapi jauh lagi baik la dr sebelum ni. My ex tak bagi, mintak extend lagi, sampai mak dia betul2 baik, dan i tak perlu risau psl duit (masa ni mmg I dah resigned, my new projects belum sempat start apa pun lagi, hidup dgn savings saja, marital assets adala sikit2 tapi masih belum finalized who gets what, so financially i was pretty stucked) dia akan tanggung semua, all my monthly commitments yg selama ni masa kawin i bayar sendiri, termasuk nafkah i pun, dia akan terus bagi, anggap jer duit nafkah tu imbuhan jaga mak dia katanya (this is a pretty big move on his part, because i know his finances, not that cash-rich pun utk tanggung semua sekali, mmg kena korek his savings punya lah, atau ada aset yg dia kena let go), i tak payah buat apa pun, asal duduk situ jadi penghibur hati mak mertua jer cukup. For as long as u live under this roof i'll make sure u won't go hungry katanya. Nampak kan permainan dia? Haha.
Masa ni edah mmg habis dah. Mmg dr awal I stay situ, mmg I biasa mengelak jer dr jumpa dia, bercakap apatah lagi, kecuali hal2 penting saja. And he too respected my boundaries. Kalau I ada kat bilik dia kat atas, mmg dia takkan naik, nak rehat, nak apa, kat guest room bawah je. Walau jarang bercakap, I could see he was miserable, as he's back to his smoking habit. Apparently he was still angry at me for refusing to work things out (it was already too late then, as i already made up my mind) & insisting on the divorce & yet he can't get me out of his life, due to his mother. Dia ni jenisnya kalau marah dgn i, lebih byk diam, masa awal2 i duk situ, mmg gitu je lah, sampai tahap ehh kalau craving nak makan apa2 yg biasa i buat utk dia pun dia suruh anak sedara la, bibik la yg bagitau i, yg dia nak i buatkan benda tu benda ni, benda2 simple je la, nak makan grilled cheese bodoh jer pun kena guna org tengah nak bagitau prfthh.
I cuba juga slow talk dgn mak dia, to just let me find my own happiness, tapi tiap kali i baru nak try, dah bergenang air mata org tua tu, abih caner?
Pejam celik pejam celik dah dekat 3 bulan i jadi peneman pengubat lara mertua, walau dlm hati sendiri penuh gulana. Kadang datang guilty conscience, were we living in sins? Takat mana boleh elak dr bertentang mata pun, bukannya rumah agam sebesar alam. Ada masa tgh2 mlm i turun cari air, ingatkan dia dah balik rumah rupanya masih kat dining table hadap laptop buat keja, kdg tgh zoom call dgn offices in european/north american region, he wouldn't say a thing tapi dia punya renungan tu mmg boleh runtuh iman huhu... ada masa kena berdua satu kereta, the heavy silence & the sexual tensions sepanjang perjalanan itu, it kills me over & over again, every time.... ada masa tersentuh tanpa sengaja terutama masa sama2 uruskan ibunya...those little things.
True to his words, that he won't beg me to reconcile, memang langsung dia tak pujuk I ya utk rujuk/nikah semula. Saudara mara ada dah yg berbunyi. My SIL bagitau my ex pernah mengamuk dlm their big family WA group sbb ada sepupu ka auntie ka yg secara low-key indirectly mengata i, tak sebut nama i pun, but those who read know exactly to whom those shades were being thrown at, he angrily wrote that it was his decision to ask me to stay there, to be there for his mother, for as long as his mother needs me, all expenses paid, anybody got any problem with that, just come and directly say it to his face, gituh. Mak mertua suruh i sabar. Dia cuma mampu nasihat anak bertuah dia tu jgn kerap sgt berlama2 kat situ sampai tgh2 malam. Weekend saja dia boleh tidur situ. Waktu ni i dah gradually regain my life back dah (well, he still pays for everything though). Weekend i akan balik rumah i. Weekdays saja i duk rumah mertua, sambil wfh, and slowly starting having outside meetings with clients, sometimes having lunch or coffee with my friends, u know, the usual stuff. I even sleep at my place, some nights. Hujung minggu mmg i tak duk situ, I need my me-time juga. Lagipun biasanya hujung2 minggu anak cucu yg lain akan datang jenguk my PIL, tak sunyi sepi pun kalau i takde. My MIL pun at this point has somewhat redho dah, atas apa2 suratan antara anak dia dgn i, kalau masih ada jodoh lagi adalah, kalau dah tak ada, i assure her, that i'll always be her daughter, no matter what, notwithstanding of whatever the future is between me and her only son, her first born.
By this time kami dah ok2 saja, time heals i guess, dah boleh bercakap mcm biasa, boleh keluar makan2, pegi gym sama2, i'm back to being his sounding board & sometimes his harshest critic, and on his most stressful days, the shoulder that he can lean his head on (he just loves doing that, in private mmg jenis manja yer) cuma takde apa2 ikatan je lah.
Most of these things happened kat luar la eh, away from his family's eyes. Bila dekat rumah MIL, rasa canggung itu masih tetap ada, because we both know things are no longer what they used to be. Pun begitu, MIL tetap suruh dia menikah semula dgn i secepat mungkin, bimbang, sbb tgk kami dah lain machiem, dia cuma diam, i pun diam. Bila org luar yg tanya/suruh, dia cakap insyaallah jelah, very non-committal gituh and quickly kills off the subject, not interested in talking abt it any further. Tapi bila kawan baik dia, yg dia dah anggap macam abang dia sendiri yg nasihat (ni the wife la bagitau i, the exact conversation i tak tau macamana), katanya i yg insist sgt nak bercerai, bukan dia, so kalau nak nikah semula, it has to be MY decision, not his, because if it is solely up to him, semalam lagi dia dah menikah dgn i, bukan hari ni, bukan minggu depan, tapi semalam. Nak luruh jantung i dengar.
Looking back, I think he purposely said that in front of his good friend's wife, knowing me & her are pretty close, knowing that those words will eventually reach me, that he wants ME to make the first move.
My first move? Balik rumah mak ayah i lol. No, seriously, sbb adik bongsu i nak bertunang lah, bukan sbb i nak buat wayang hindustan dgn ex laki i tu, acah2 lari lak. Dia tahu mmg i plan nak balik rumah mak ayah i seminggu, my PIL pun tahu. Tapi dia tak tahu yg i dah tau 3,4 hari sblm tu, yg dia nak i yg ajak dia kawin semula hihi. Macam chomel jah tunggu org propose kat dia, when he himself can do it, weeks or even months before lol. And i would have said yes 100 times over *blush*
Sampai2 rumah my parents, i hantar WA gambar this beautiful emerald pool in krabi that we went to a few years back, with the caption, "just thinking of u, and this stunningly beautiful pool in thai rainforest. will u take a plunge with me...again, love?" #ThisIsMySwallowingAllMyPrideMoment
And i was like, nasib lah, nak paham, paham, taknak paham sudah hahaha. Sudahnya uols tau apa? Dia bagi blue tick aje kat i tauuu???!!! Rasa nak nanges jer. Sunyi sepi tak kata apa, 2 hari our WA chat tergantung gitu jer, ya tidak, tidak pun tidak, eh apa ni tak paham, u nak ajak i pergi krabi ker...pun tidak juga. I sent that on monday evening, on wednesday evening baru dia jawab, tu pun thru WA status jah uols, emoji love & infinity, itu saja, (dia mmg sorang yg sgt2 rare utk up status & i tau that status mmg tuju kat i, because we always end our conversations with that emojis, masa2 tgh bahagia sblm ni la, dah gaduh takde dah haha ), tu pun tak sampai 10 minit lepas i seen that status dia padam hahahaha. Penat tau, kita dekat 1/2 jam pikir nak tulis apa, boleh dia reply dgn 2 ketul emoji jer, tu pun 2 hari lepas tu??? Maghoh betul i.
Oleh sebab i busy dgn majlis tunang adik i, i takde masa nak layan perasaan, kira lantak kau situ, i've done my part, now it's up to u...gaytohhhh, mak flips hair
That was on wednesday night.
Tiba2 pagi khamis...dia, dgn his 2 colleagues, sampai kat rumah mak ayah i. Tu first time dia jejak kaki rumah parents i lepas kami bercerai, siap bawak bentara 2 orang, kecut dgn mak ayah i ker? lol
I takde kat rumah pun masa tu, pagi2 sblm pkl 7 dah kluar, tak tau pun dia nak datang. Sampai2 rumah dlm pkl 9 gitu dr pintu depan lagi i dah dengar suara diaorang tgh gelak2 kat dapur (he has this deep distinctive voice, dr jauh dah blh cam tu suara dia, walau bercampurbaur dgn other noises or other voices pun) tgh breakfast dgn my parents. Ehhhh? Muka penuh ceria ya, bila nampak muka i, mcm takde apa yg berlaku, muka tak bersalah punya. He signalled me to sit on the chair beside him, i buat tak reti jer, i ambik pinggan, well after i regaining my composure la, sbb terkejut tgk dia datang, terus duduk makan sebelah my mak, berubah muka member hihi
I dengar jah diaorang borak, tak sampuk apa2 pun, well, bapak i dgn colleagues dia tu lah borak, dia banyak senyum jah sambil tgk i makan lol. Rupanya mmg dia call dah my parents on monday night, errr mlm yg i ajak dia kawen tu lah prrftth, bagitau yg dia n his colleagues nak singgah pagi khamis tu, on the way pergi meeting di penang. Tapi dia tak bagi my parents bagitau i yg dia nak datang. Patutlah tgk mak i masak breakfast mcm lebih dr biasa2 pagi tu, ingatkan sapa nak datang, rupa2nya menantu dan kawan2 nak singgah makan
Sblm dia nak pergi teruskan perjalanan dia panggil i pergi kat kereta ambik barang (they came with their company car, tu yg i tak perasan tu, yg dia ada masa i sampai rumah), sbb parents dia ada kirimkan buah tangan sbb tak dpt datang adik i tunang, my parents dgn his colleagues ada kat main door lagi, tgh cakap psl apa ntah + ajak diaorang dtg makan tengahari sabtu nanti
2-3 minit dekat boot kereta tu jelah pun kesempatan i nak bercakap berdua dgn dia pagi tu, he said he missed me, i cemik jer, miss me la sgt i kata, i mesej berhari2 pun tak balas2, sambil gelak dia jawab kan i dah reply dah malam tadi? I buat muka tak puas hati je kat dia. Then he turned really serious and said, i'm here, right now, in front of u, i kluar rumah seawal2 pagi tadi so that i blh singgah sini & see u, me being here in person, i think that is a very loud and clear answer from me. Bergetar jiwa i dengar yer. Terdiam kejap i. He has that kind of effects on me. And i could feel with all the fibres in my being that he really wanted to touch me right there and then. I could see his fingers drumming furiously on the car boot, and the look of frustrations on his face. I've lived with him long enough to know what those fingers drumming really mean, and I know that look, and i know i have that kind of effects on him. Tapi sbb my parents were just less than 30 feet away, and his colleagues were coming towards us, so nothing happens la ehhhh, we're not the lovesick teenagers anymore.
Fast forward to saturday, majlis adik i dr pagi hingga tengahari jer, petang tu dah takde apa dah, tinggal nak mengemas jah, sblm maghrib dah settle belaka dah. So sblm dia balik kl semula malam tu (his colleagues dia dah hantar ke hotel siang tu, sementara dia nak settle hal dgn i dgn my parents ni), lepas maghrib we sat down, me, him & my parents. Bergenang ya airmata bila i ingat ni. Dia mintak izin dgn mak ayah i utk menikah dgn i semula. Dan dia mintak maaf dgn mak ayah i atas semua kekurangan dan kesilapan dia selama dia jaga i selama ni. That he took me for granted. That he didn't try hard enough to keep the relationship alive, until it was too late. Dia jugak mintak maaf dgn i atas hal2 yg jadi selama i duduk rumah his parents lepas kami bercerai, dia kata dia tahu i tak selesa, and it hurts him more than i'll ever know, to have to put me in that difficult situation, tapi dia tak ada pilihan, his mother's deterioting health trumps everything else, sbb mak mentua i sayang i sgt2, and not having me around really make the bad things worse. Dan dia jugak mintak maaf with my parents atas hal ini, kalau perbuatan dia membuka segala pintu fitnah & buat org tua i sentiasa bimbang atas apa2 kemungkinan yg akan jadi antara kami huhu. Bergetar suara dia masa ni. The fear of losing his mother collided heads on with the potential of incurring the wraths of god and my parents, really takes a toll on him.
Nangis i bila dia cakap mcm tu. Knowing him, it's not the easiest for him to say those things, sbb dia bukannya jenis mudah nak cakap psl hati dan perasaan pun, apatah lagi confessing on his vulnerabilities, sgt payah yer, so on the rare occasions that he talks abt it, it really comes from the deepest part of his soul (okay, now i'm being over-dramatic, am i turning into a drama queen like my mother?)
So basically, itu lah yg berlaku malam tu. Panjang lebar jugak mak ayah i bersyarah malam tu, especially mak i, dua2 kena basuh, i kena, dia pun kena. Kami dua2 byk diam je lah bila dah kena syarah dgn org tua ni uols, menjawab pun tak guna, mmg takkan menang punya
Ohh ingat tak yg psl dia call my parents hari isnin malam tu, bagitau nak singgah breakfast pagi khamis tu? Rupanya mlm tu dia dah mintak izin dgn mak ayah i dah, nak kawin semula dgn i, tapi mak ayah i suruh dia datang mintak sendiri depan2 i (sambil2 terbakar telinga dapat dengar syarahan free) .
Next level punya mental yer, dua hari dua malam dia sidai i taktau apa keputusan, walhal awal2 lagi malam tu jugak tak sempat siang ayam berkokok dia dah bagitau mak ayah i, walhal kita ni 2 hari tak keruan, pikir mcm2 dah, dia ni dah taknak kat aku ker, dah ada org lain ke, masuk lokap ker, tgh koma ke
Sblm dia bertolak balik malam tu, kami sempat sembang kejap dlm kereta, dia ajak i ikut dia balik, ada masa 3 hari katanya sblm dia kena travel atas urusan kerja, nanti 2 minggu dia takde, i balik la rumah my parents semula, uruskan hal2 kitaorang nak menikah ni, gitoh dia cadang. Lama i hidup dgn dia. I know exactly what's on his mind. I can read him like the back of my hand.
I kata i hanya akan balik ikut dia, bila dah sah menikah semula, until then i takottttt, usahkan 3 hari, 3 jam pun i tak berani, it's been too long. Not that i don't trust him around me, it's more abt i don't trust myself around him. And I'll keep his reaction upon hearing that, etched on my mind, for as long as i live haha
So, terpisah lah kami selama 3 minggu. Dia ke new delhi, ankara then finally doha. I kat rumah parents i, uruskan bbrp hal, hal kawin lah, hal pusaka lah, hal bisnes bapak i lah, sibuk ya mmg sibuk, dan kesibukan biasanya membuatkan terasa masa berjalan terlalu pantas, tapi 3 minggu yg ini terasanya begitu lama
Akhirul kalam, kami selamat dinikahkan 4 hari lepas dia kembali ke tanahair. Nikah kat pejabat agama saja uols. Takde majlis apa pun. Lagipun di belah family i tak ramai pun yg perasan kami bercerai, sbb duration perpisahan tu tak bertembung dgn time raya, kalu tak payah juga nak bersilat, ehhh dah kenapa raya sorang? Laki ko mana?lol
Tapi parents i tetap tempah nasik hantar jemaah masjid, syukur dah berbaik katanya, dah hilang dah serabut kepala org tua dgn perangai anak2
Dan lepas nikah tu bapak i pecah lobang, yg mak i, despite bahasakan i sbb bercerai tak mintak sepatah pendapat org tua, dah cerai gi duduk rumah MIL lak even lepas habih tempoh edah dan bukak segala risiko utk berlaku benda2 yg tak patut antara i dan my then-ex, bangun solat tiap malam yer, doakan i, agar terhindar segala benda yg tak elok, terima kasih makkkkk *nanges*
Di belah family dia, sbb ramai yg aware apa yg berlaku antara kami (remember the WA group fiasco?) my PIL suruh jugak buat makan2 sikit, buat bbq over the weekend gitu jelah kalangan anak beranak saja, takde la hidang nasik minyak air sirap pun, sekadar utk berkumpul sedara mara, cukup utk everybody awares yg segalanya dah legal semula, takde dah gosip2, teh tumpah segala macam
Utk kawan2 pun kami tak buat, sbb tak ramai pun yg tahu, lagipun we're not the type of people who eat, sleep, breathe, shit on socmed pun, cukup post gambar kawin hat dulu2 kat status WA dgn caption, 12 years on, here's to the next eternity, gitu la lebih krg, lupa dah, yg paham paham lah, yg tatau apa ucap selamat anniversary ke 12 hahaha
So yeah...that's our untold love story. It's all in the past now, and we are back to our routines, kejap kat rumah sendiri, kejap kat rumah PIL, kadang bila cuti panjang, balik rumah mak bapak i. Life without kids has its own challenges, but we are thankful everyday for god's graciousness for the chances we have to be a better son, a better daughter, a better son-in-law, a better daughter-in-law, to both sets of our parents. I'm trying to be a better wife. He's trying to be a better husband. Tak tau kenapa rasa sedih jer nak tutup kisah ni. Just watching him peacefully sleeping right now, his right arm reaching over to my pillows, just 5 minutes ago those fingers were playing with my hair, reminds me of how fragile life is. Do appreciate those who you love, and those who loves you back, cause you may never know when it will all be gone, when there's absolutely no do-overs.
Dear F....
I thank god everyday for this do-over.
And absolutely there's nothing in the world that could exchange the feeling of you falling into deep sleep while playing with the strands of my hair.
Absolutely nothing.
You are enough for me in every way. I hope i am enough for you in every way.
Love~Infinity
THE END
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NuansaBiru replied at 11-3-2024 12:38 PM
NOTE: Some names/places/times/dates are modified to protect my identity
Just to share. This is of ...
Sebak i baca your sharing.. bergenang air mata sat tadi..
Tahniah for your 12 ++++ anniversary.. and tahniah dpt jumpa life companion... bukan senang nak jumpa pasangan yang betul2 ikhlas syg kita...
Ujian org tak sama.. childless ke apa.. janji kita sama2 pasangan ni yang penting hidup mati bersama.. build life together... travel the world lah |
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green~tea replied at 11-3-2024 01:33 PM
Sebak i baca your sharing.. bergenang air mata sat tadi..
Tahniah for your 12 ++++ anniversary.. ...
Most of the times iols ok je
Sebab masing2 pun dah lewat usia, so the subject of starting a family never came up pun dari awal2 kawin lagi
Cuma ya lah, kita cuma manusia biasa
Sesekali rasa sayu tgk suami layan anak2 sedara dia
Dia mmg jenis suka budak2
Iols mmg more on a reserved side when it comes to children
Bukan jenis asal nampak baby comel ajer nak dukung2 nak gomol2 ololololo tomey tomey tomey  |
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NuansaBiru replied at 11-3-2024 05:32 PM
Most of the times iols ok je
Sebab masing2 pun dah lewat usia, so the subject of starting a family ...
Not easy kot nak besarkan anak..
Gomol2 budak tu aku rasa fake je sis.. 5% of the times je happy gomol2.... 95% is struggle utk ensure budak2 tu jadi orang.. didik solat, tuition, hantar skolah etc... etc |
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hanihan16 replied at 29-2-2024 11:46 AM
anehnya mnetz yg komen kat post retis kepochi tanya2 dah berisi ke belum. i dari dulu dah s ...
hb i lagi hampeh... masa tu i baru kawen, pegi rumah staff dia (keje gomen) open house raya, boleh pulak hb i masa mula nak makan ckp kat hb staff tu, "kak na dah tutup kilang . kan . ini yg last lah" (sambil tunjuk baby dia)
i nampak hb org tu buat muka & jawab pandang tempat lain "boleh... kilang lain" |
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cik_ingeniare replied at 29-2-2024 01:32 PM
meols antara yg ttc jugak untuk anak no dua ni pun.. masa fasa teringin sangat tu, frust sangat bila ...
Ye tenang2 je. Enjoy life ngn anak n husb. Dan sentiasa bersyukur. Meols mcmtu tau2 dah 10 tahun dah tp umur mstu dah nak dkt 40, mmg high risk lah kan prgnacy ms tu tp alhamdullilah skrg anak bongsu dah darjah 1. Pokoknya jgn stress2 tp usaha ttp ada. Kita tawakal je |
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NuansaBiru replied at 12-3-2024 06:27 AM
Umur2 sekarang ni manjakan laki, laki manjakan kita cukop lah...kadang jaga laki demam kura lagi ...
Hahaha betul.. penat sebenarnya nak berjaga malam susukan anak.. |
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tapi dia ni kulit fair betul ek. |
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Allah je yang tahu ujian yang DIA bagi ke kalian berdua. Sedih plak baca. Semoga berbahagia. Di dunia. Sampai di syurga sana.
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SISSSSS... SYAHDU NYA BACA CERITA YOUUU.. SEMOGA YOU AND HUSBAND BAHAGIA AMAN DAMAI SEHINGGA KE AKHIR USIA.
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pendapat i, tak perlu sedih kalau tak ada anak, sebab kalau memikirkan dunia sekarang ni , da semakin canggih dengan Ai semua, tak tahu la apa jadi dengan keturunan kita nanti. lagupun kita hidup ni hanya perlukan bekalan utk masuk syurga ... sok lusa kita mati siapa tahu kan, sibuk sgt memikirkan zuriat sampai lupa tanggungjawab sebenar. ..anak tu bukan jaminan kite masuk syurga n lepas azab kubur... silap2 sebb anak kite tersangkut.. aisyah isteri nabi muhammad pun tak ada anak, siap jadi insan paling tinggi darjatnya di syurga tau.. |
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U kena happy & sihat (fizikal & mental) dulu, baru boleh fikir nak ada anak. Penat oiii dah beranak..masa preggy tu tak da apa pun..dah bersalin, haaaa..masa tu baru tau erti nak rehat, nak me time, nak nap.. |
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NuansaBiru replied at 11-3-2024 12:38 PM
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Best baca.
Mcm novel.
Love ur attitude yg cool rilek dan xkeras kepala.
Would like to read more about your romantic story.
Pernikahan ni ada seni.
Marriage kita xkn sama seni dgn marriage org..
Kan?
Menarik.... crita lah lagi apa apa.
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baca kisah ko ni lbh kurang mcm my fren...kawen dh berbelas2 thn & cerai xtau sbb apa...tp mmg diorg xde anak...
aku pun x tanya lbh2 sbb nk jaga perasaan kwn aku tu...aku assume diorg cerai sbb xde anak...lps cerai bbrp bln kwn aku kena cancer limfoma...
aku tanya kwn aku...ex hubby dh kawen lain ke...dia ckp x kawen pun...kalau cerai sbb anak mesti ex hubby dh kawen lama...ni dh cerai 2 thn lbh jugak rasanya...kwn aku pun dh early 40...so rasanya cerai bkn sbb anak la kot...diorg je la yg tahu sbb apa...
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i bace smp habes wlpn pnjg, cos i feel the same feeling , like we drifted apart and bt hal masing2.. hurm
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NuansaBiru replied at 11-3-2024 12:38 PM
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Mcm baca novel. Lagi sis lagiiii |
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Seingat aku, janna pnah jwb kat wartawan masa dia kawen dulu yg dia xnak anak dulu. Mcm fokus nak berbulan madu la mcm tu
Utk pengantin2 baru, jgn sesekali buat statement mcm ni. Mmg lambat la Allah nak bagi |
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enjoy your sex life nok...
kalau Allah nak bagi, Dia akan bagi....
rilekskan minda n enjoy the good stuff
ignore netz reputs |
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NuansaBiru replied at 11-3-2024 12:38 PM
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Dh mcm baca novel. Nangis senyum semua ada. Semoga both of u bahagia sampai akhir hayat bersama |
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